On my husband’s 50th birthday, I surprised him with a trip to Hawaii.
Yesterday, I turned 50 myself.
Early in the morning, my husband woke me up and softly whispered, “Have a surprise for you downstairs!”
I ran down – only to freeze in shock. Sitting in the middle of the room was
What Was Sitting There
A Peloton.
Still in the box. Half the cardboard torn off, white plastic showing through, a big red bow taped crookedly to the top. The kind of bow you buy at CVS at the last minute. It was listing slightly to the left.
I stood there in my socks on the cold hardwood floor and I just stared at it.
My husband, Gary, was standing behind me in his boxers and the old UNC t-shirt he’s had since 1998. Grinning. Arms wide open, like a game show host.
“Well?” he said.
I didn’t say anything.
“It’s the good one,” he said. “The one with the screen.”
I turned around and looked at him. He was still grinning. He had no idea. Genuinely zero idea.
And I thought: twenty-two years. I have been married to this man for twenty-two years, and he has looked at me every day during those twenty-two years, and he bought me a stationary bike for my fiftieth birthday.
What I Did for His Fiftieth
I want to be clear about what Gary’s fiftieth looked like, because I think it matters.
I started planning eight months out. Eight months. I have a spreadsheet. I still have the spreadsheet. It has tabs.
The flights were booked in February. I’d called his sister Donna in January to get the weeks she could watch the kids, because Donna’s schedule is a nightmare and you have to work around her or you lose her entirely. I’d called Gary’s college roommate, Phil Siebert, who lives in Portland now, and asked him to fly out and meet us in Maui. Phil said yes immediately. Phil actually cried a little on the phone, which I wasn’t expecting.
We stayed at a place on the water. Not a resort, an actual house, because Gary doesn’t like resorts. He thinks the pools are crowded and the food is too expensive and he’s not wrong, but I’ve always secretly loved them. I booked the house anyway.
I planned a sunset catamaran thing. I made a reservation at a restaurant where the chef was someone Gary had read about in a magazine once, three years before, and I remembered that. I remembered him folding the corner of the page down. I found the magazine in his office, looked up the chef, found out he’d moved to Maui, and made the reservation four months in advance.
I put together a photo book. Forty-nine photos for forty-nine years, one for each year of his life, with captions. His mom helped me find the ones from before we met. I mailed her a flash drive and she mailed it back with pictures she’d scanned at a Walgreens.
It took me six weeks to write the captions.
Gary cried at the photo book. He cried at the restaurant. He cried when Phil walked out onto the beach. He said it was the best birthday of his life, and I believed him, and I still believe him.
The Peloton
I’m not a person who has ever expressed a desire for a Peloton.
I want to be fair here. I go to a yoga class on Tuesday mornings. I walk. I’m not sedentary. But I’ve never watched a cycling class, never mentioned wanting one, never looked at one in a store. Gary did not arrive at this gift through any logic that involved paying attention to me.
I know where this came from. His coworker, a guy named Brian Kowalski, got his wife a Peloton last Christmas and apparently she loves it. Gary told me this story in December. I remember it because I was half asleep and he was talking about Brian’s wife’s Peloton at eleven-thirty at night for reasons I still don’t understand.
So he bought me Brian Kowalski’s wife’s birthday present.
He stood there in the living room waiting for me to react, and I could see on his face that he was proud. He’d ordered it weeks ago, he told me. He’d had it delivered to his buddy Dave’s garage so I wouldn’t see it. He’d driven it over at six in the morning and assembled it himself, which is why the bow was crooked and one of the handlebars was slightly lower than the other.
He put effort in. I want to say that. He put effort into the logistics of this gift. He just didn’t put effort into thinking about me specifically, as a person, as his wife, as the woman he’s slept next to for twenty-two years.
“You can do the classes online,” he said. “They have a whole app.”
What I Said
I said thank you.
I said it looked really nice.
I asked if he wanted coffee.
He said yes and followed me into the kitchen and started telling me about the different subscription tiers, and I stood at the counter waiting for the coffee maker to finish and I looked out the window at the backyard. The oak tree we planted when our youngest, Caitlin, was born. She’s fifteen now and the tree is taller than the house.
I thought about Hawaii. I thought about the photo book and the captions I’d spent six weeks writing. I thought about the one I’d written for the year he turned thirty-two, which was the year we almost didn’t make it, the year we went to couples therapy and sat in a beige office in Chapel Hill and learned how to fight without destroying each other. I’d written something true about that year, not a greeting-card version of it, something real, and he’d read it and looked up at me and I knew he understood.
I thought about whether he’d ever looked at me and tried to remember something I’d said in passing three years ago.
I thought about Brian Kowalski’s wife, whoever she is, happily riding her Peloton.
The coffee maker beeped.
The Part I Didn’t Expect
My daughter saved the morning.
Caitlin came downstairs at eight, still in her pajamas, hair everywhere, and she had a card in her hand. Handmade. She’d cut the card out of thick paper she’d taken from her art class, and she’d drawn on the front a picture of me and her at the beach from two summers ago, done in colored pencil, and it looked exactly like us. She’s got real talent, that kid. I don’t say that just because she’s mine.
Inside the card she’d written: Mom. You are the person I want to be when I grow up. Not when I’m 50. Like, now. You already are who I want to be.
My son Marcus, who is nineteen and home from his first year at NC State, came down twenty minutes later with a box of the specific doughnuts I like from the place on Franklin Street, which meant he’d gotten up early and driven twenty minutes to get them while they were still fresh. He didn’t make a big deal of it. He just put the box on the counter and said, “Happy birthday, Mom,” and poured himself a coffee.
I stood in my kitchen with my coffee and my kid’s drawing and a box of hot doughnuts and I thought: okay. Okay.
Gary was still talking about the Peloton app.
What Happened That Night
We went out to dinner, the four of us, to the Italian place we’ve been going to since the kids were small enough to need high chairs. Same booth in the back. Same basket of bread. Caitlin ordered the same thing she’s ordered since she was seven.
Gary gave a toast. He’s not a natural toaster. He gets awkward and he knows it, and he started and stopped twice and Marcus said “come on, Dad” and Gary laughed at himself, which I’ve always loved about him, that he can laugh at himself.
He said I was the best person he knew. He said the last twenty-two years were the best of his life. He said he didn’t know how I did everything I did and he was sorry he didn’t say that enough.
He wasn’t reading off his phone. He wasn’t reciting something he’d prepared. He was just standing there in the back booth of Carmela’s on a Tuesday night saying true things in the wrong order, getting a little red in the face, and meaning every word.
Caitlin put her head on my shoulder.
I thought about the Peloton. I thought about Hawaii. I thought about the spreadsheet with its tabs, and whether any of it meant what I’d thought it meant, and whether I’d been keeping score in a game Gary didn’t know we were playing.
I didn’t figure it out. I’m still not sure I have.
But the bread was good, and the wine was good, and my daughter’s head was warm on my shoulder, and Gary sat back down and grabbed my hand under the table and held it the way he has for twenty-two years, thumb moving in that small circle, and I let him.
The Peloton is still in the living room.
I rode it this morning.
It’s actually pretty good.
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