Orville knocked at supper time with a cat carrier in one hand and his coat already buttoned.
He said the trip was URGENT and there was nobody else on the street to ask.
“Nine days, maybe eleven,” he said. “Food’s in the blue bin. Don’t let him out the front.”
He had lived across from us five years and had never come up our walk once. I said yes because his hands were shaking.
The cat was called Rusty and slept on the warm dryer like he had paid for it.
Junie was nine and took over the feeding before I could ask her.
Orville did not come back.
His phone rang into a recording, then stopped ringing at all.
NINETEEN DAYS.
I went over and knocked until my knuckles hurt. Mail stood out of the slot in a fan.
The sheriff’s people walked the house and told me the stove was cold and the bed was made.
“People go,” Sergeant Nakamura said. “More often than you’d think.”
“He left his CAT,” I said.
Then she said the thing that opened it.
“Mom, his collar crunches when he turns over.”
I told her collars don’t crunch. She held him up under my ear and I heard PAPER.
The red band had been opened along the inside and sewn shut with thread that didn’t match.
Inside was a flat brass key and a square of notebook paper folded down to the size of a stamp. His handwriting was small and pressed hard enough to score the sheet.
“If you’re reading this I ran out of time to say it to your face. Unit 14, Kettering Self Storage. I’m sorry I waited.”
I read it four times.
Junie asked what it said and I told her to go feed the cat.
I drove out with the key wet in my fist. Unit 14 sat at the end of the row, second from the fence.
The padlock fought me twice.
I got the door up a foot and stopped. Then the rest of the way.
“ORVILLE,” I said, to nobody at all. “FIVE YEARS ACROSS ONE STREET.”
Then I stood in the doorway and called Nakamura back.
The bins
Under the door was a folding chair, and on the chair was a green metal box the size of a bread loaf, and past it, along both walls, plastic bins stacked to my shoulder with masking tape on the ends and my last name written on the tape.
Pruitt. Every one of them. Pruitt, Pruitt, Pruitt, in that small pressed handwriting.
I counted eleven bins before I quit counting.
The nearest one had the lid on crooked. I lifted it and it was full of paper in file folders, and the folder on top said PRUITT — HOUSE — 1994, and inside that was a photocopy of a deed with my grandmother’s name on it and a second name I did not know.
The unit smelled like cold concrete and cardboard. There was a can of orange soda on the floor by the chair, unopened, gone soft at the top the way they go when they sit through a summer.
I sat in his chair and put my hand flat on the lid of the box because the box had a hasp and no lock and I could not make my fingers do it.
Nakamura picked up on the fourth ring.
“You need to come out to the storage place,” I said. “He’s been keeping something about my family.”
“Ma’am, is anyone with you?”
“No,” I said. “Just his cat, at home, in my kid’s room.”
I heard her chair. Then I heard her tell somebody a unit number I had not given her yet.
Five years across one street
I want to be honest about what he was to me before all this, because it is the whole reason I never went over.
He was the man who mowed on Sundays and waved with the flat of his hand, palm up, like he was showing you it was empty. He never came past the curb. When we moved in, in the spring, he stood at the end of his driveway with a truck idling behind him and said welcome and then went inside, and that was five years of neighboring.
I made a decision about him early. He was fine. He was the kind of quiet you don’t check on.
That is why the night he came with the carrier took me about ninety seconds. I said yes, I took the handle out of his hand, and I walked him back down my walk to the curb and stood on the step with a dish towel over my shoulder while he crossed. He turned once at his truck and lifted his hand, palm up, and I lifted mine. Then I went back in and finished snapping the green beans I had going in the colander, because the water was already on.
I had a reason not to check on anybody that year. My mother had died in February and my aunt Delphine and I stopped speaking in March over what got sold and what got kept, and after that I had no appetite for other people’s business. My grandmother’s house on Grove went to auction that fall and I did not go to the auction. I told Junie’s father, back when he was still around, that I did not want to know what it went for. He said that was a hell of a way to live. He was gone by the next Christmas anyway.
So. That is the shape of me in this story. A woman who does not open things.
The one time Orville and I had a real conversation was two Octobers back. He was standing at his mailbox holding an envelope and he asked me, out of nowhere, if my mother’s people had been from over by Grove Street.
I said they had.
He said, “That’s what I thought,” and put the envelope in his coat pocket, and went in.
I told Junie about it that night because it struck me funny. She was seven and she asked me why he didn’t just come over and ask, and I said because grown men don’t, honey, and I laughed, and I set the plates down.
Two years later Nakamura’s cruiser came around the row with its lights off. How had I gone from my green beans to sitting in his chair?
Sergeant Nakamura’s flashlight
She looked at eleven bins with my name on them and she did not say what I expected.
She said, “Don’t touch anything else.”
Then she put her flashlight on the tape at the ends of the bins and read my name down the row like she was reading a shelf in a library, and she asked me how well I knew Orville Pike, and I said not at all, and she wrote that down.
I asked her, before anything else, how she had known the unit number. She said the gate office logs every padlock cut or opened after hours and that the number had gone into the missing-person file the same night, along with the lease, because the lease had been sitting in his mail. “You’re not the only one who can read a name off a piece of tape,” she said.
She asked if he had ever been in my house.
He had not.
She asked if he had ever asked about my daughter.
I said no and then I stood up, because the question does something to your legs.
“Say what you’re saying,” I said.
“I’m not saying anything yet,” she said. “I’m asking a man’s neighbor about a man.”
She took photographs. She took the folder off the top of the open bin, the one with my grandmother’s deed in it, and looked at it under the light for a long time, and then she asked me who Loyal Pike was.
I said I had never heard the name.
“It’s on your grandmother’s paper,” she said. “Second buyer. 1994.”
I asked her what that meant and she said she did not know yet and she was telling me the truth. Then she did the thing I did not expect. She put the folder back in the bin and put the lid on and said the unit had a paid balance through March and she had no reason to seize anything, and that if he turned up alive it was his property and I would have to make a case.
“So I just leave it,” I said.
“You leave it,” she said. “And you lock it, and you go home to your kid, and I run him.”
She waited while I put the padlock back through the hasp. She held her light on my hands while I did it. Then she asked, already turning, whether I had gotten into the green box on the chair, and I said no, and she said good, that was the one she’d want.
I stood alone in the row with the light off and my hand still on the cold door, and across the fence a semi went by on the county road, and I understood that I was going to come back here without her.
The green box
I did not go home to my kid. I went home to my kid and then I lay in the dark until four and then I got up and made coffee and sat at the laundry room door where Rusty was on the dryer, and I did the arithmetic on a man I had waved to for five years.
Here is what I knew. He asked about Grove Street. He kept eleven bins with my last name on the tape. He put a key in a cat’s collar and gave the cat to me, personally, into my hands, and then went somewhere with his coat buttoned and did not come back.
You can build two men out of those facts. One of them has been watching my house.
The other one has been trying to give me something and could not get up my walk.
At six I woke Junie for school and she came down and put her face in the cat’s side the way she does and said, “Is Orville dead?”
“I don’t know.”
“Because you keep looking at his house.”
I drove her to school. Then I drove to the storage row with a pair of bolt cutters I did not need, because I had the key, and that is the only funny thing in this whole business.
The green box had a hasp and no lock and I opened it in the doorway with the door up all the way and the light coming in over my shoulder.
Inside were nine envelopes with the flaps already slit, all addressed to Orville Pike, all from a law office in Dayton. Underneath the envelopes was a spiral notebook. And under the notebook, wrapped in a dish towel, was a red nylon cat collar, older than the one Rusty came in wearing, the seam opened along the inside and resewn with thread that didn’t match.
He had done it before. To somebody.
The notebook was accounts. Dates down the left, dollars down the right, going back to 1994, small and pressed hard. The last entry was in March and it said 6,200 and the word FINAL and after that half a page of nothing.
I sat down on the concrete with the notebook in my lap and read a man’s arithmetic for an hour. It was money going out, every year, in September, every September of my life since I was nine years old.
At the top of the first page, in ink gone brown as the 1994 rows underneath it, he had written For Iris Pruitt, from what Loyal took. Do it right this time. My grandmother’s name. And under it, in ink still black, in a hand that had gotten shakier in thirty-one years, two words added later and pressed hard enough to dent the page: For Charlene.
I put the notebook down and picked up one of the slit envelopes and it was a letter from the law office and it started Dear Mr. Pike, further to your instruction, we are unable to locate a living relative willing to accept.
The date on it was eleven days before he knocked on my door.
I sat there in the empty storage unit and said his name out loud. Who was Loyal Pike?
The bench on his porch
I found out who Loyal Pike was from a woman at the county recorder’s office who had a paper cut on her thumb and no interest in my life.
Loyal Pike was Orville’s father. He held a second position on my grandmother’s house from 1994, which is a thing I had to have explained to me twice at a counter, and when my grandmother could not pay it, he took the difference out of what should have come down to my mother, and my mother never knew who he was either, because the paper my family got had a company name on it and not a man’s.
That is what happened to us. That is the whole of what happened to us, and it fits on one line, and no one in my family ever knew the line existed.
I sat in my car in the lot with the engine off.
Then I drove to Orville’s house and I sat on his porch where the bench used to be before he took it in, and there were two plastic bins stacked against the wall and a hose coiled up beside them, and I put my back against his siding and I did the thing I had not done in five years, which is imagine him.
Fifty-eight years old, a retired county road grader, his father’s son, sitting on his side of one street looking at my side of it every September and writing 6,200 in a notebook and taking it to a law office in Dayton and being told by professionals that they were unable to locate a living relative willing to accept.
Because I was the living relative. And I would not have accepted. That is the part I sat with on his porch. If Orville Pike had come up my walk in October two years ago with an envelope in his coat and said my father took your grandmother’s house out from under her and I have been putting money by since 1994, I would have shut the door on him. I know myself. I did not open things.
He knew it too. He asked me one question at a mailbox and read my whole face and went inside. Thirty-one years he had been keeping it for a name on a deed, and two Octobers ago, at a mailbox, he learned which face on his street the name had come down to.
So he sewed it into a cat.
I was still sitting there when Nakamura’s cruiser came down the street and she got out and did not come up onto the porch. She stood at the bottom step with her hat off, which is how you know before anybody says anything.
“Preble County,” she said. “Wednesday. He drove into the river at Eldorado, on a straight stretch, at eleven in the morning.”
“How long has he—”
“Since Wednesday,” she said. “Nineteen days is your count. He was alive for ten of them.”
I asked the only question I had.
“Did he have anything on him?”
She looked at her hat.
“A cat carrier,” she said. “In the truck bed. Empty. Strapped down.”
What Delphine said in my kitchen
Here is the cost, and I am going to put it plain because I have gotten tired of not saying things.
I had to call my aunt Delphine.
I had not spoken to her since March of the year my mother died. To do anything at all with what Orville left, the law office in Dayton needed the whole line of us, and the whole line of us was me and Delphine and nobody else, and I sat with the phone in my hand for two days before I dialed the number I still knew by heart.
She let me get out three sentences. Then she said, “You didn’t call me when your mother’s stone went in.”
“No.”
“You want to talk about a house now.”
“I want to talk about your mother’s house,” I said. “And a man who lived across from me for five years and couldn’t get up my walk.”
She came on a Sunday. She sat at my kitchen table with her coat on, the way people do when they have not decided to stay, and she read nine slit envelopes and one notebook without saying a word, and Rusty got up on the table and she put him off it without looking at him.
Then she got to the front page. For Iris Pruitt, from what Loyal took. And under it, in the newer ink, For Charlene.
“For Charlene,” she said.
“I know.”
“Not for Delphine.”
“I know.”
She turned the notebook around so it faced me. “He didn’t know me. He knew the one across the street.” She sat back. “Thirty-one years that man carried it and paid it to the one who landed in front of him.”
Then my aunt Delphine, who I had not spoken to in five years, said something I am going to carry.
“You know what your mother’s whole life was? Not knowing why she got nothing. She thought Grandma drank it.” She put both hands flat on the table. “She died thinking her own mother drank a house.”
Junie came in for a glass of water and stopped in the doorway because her aunt was crying at our table and she had never met her.
Delphine wiped her face with the back of her wrist and looked at her.
“You’re the one that heard the collar,” she said.
Junie said she was.
“Then you’re the only one in this family who ever checked anything,” Delphine said.
It goes to the two of us, evenly, because I told the law office to write it that way and it cost me half. Delphine says I am a fool. Delphine calls on Thursdays now to tell me so.
Unit 14, in March
The lease on the unit runs out at the end of March and I am not renewing it.
I have been bringing the bins home four at a time in the back of the car, and Junie makes me read out the tape on the ends before we carry them in, Pruitt, Pruitt, Pruitt, like it is a joke we have, and it is, a little.
The green box is on the shelf in my laundry room above the dryer, where the cat sleeps. The old collar is still in it, in the dish towel. I have not thrown that out and I am not going to.
I go across the street on Sundays now and mow the strip along Orville’s fence, because the house has not sold and somebody ought to. Last week a woman came out of the place next to his to get her mail and I stopped the mower and said hello and asked her how long she had been on the street.
She said nine years.
“Charlene,” I said, and put my hand out, and she looked at it a second before she took it, because that is how it is when you have lived a long time next to somebody who does not come past the curb.
If this one got to you, send it to whoever lives across the street from you — the one you wave at and have never once asked a question.
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